I've Got The Blues!

Haven't been bloggin for a while. Seriously, i just can't find the time to do it. Plus i'm lazy. So, my the little time i have, here goes!

Just came back from a working trip to the East Coast. Nothin' new there coz i've been there a couple of times.Overall it was very a productive trip.

Anyhoo...got some things on my mind right now. Can't quite focus on anything anymore. Sharil n i are about to take a big leap into the future. Of course it's gonna affect me B-I-G time but if we don't act now, they'll never be another chance. I'm just worried about the welfare of my kids...that's all. His nature of work will definitely keep him away from us, but if he doesn't do it, well...they'll never be a another chance.

I saw the change it brought to my friend and he's very well off. But i'll be alone most of the time. I depend on Shahril for a lot of things...stupid i know! With him not being around, who do i talk to at night? or when i have problems i can't solve by myself?

Or when i'm sick at home? Or when i'm bored? Who do i turn to? He's not exactly a hoot when it comes to jokes, but i'll miss him if he goes away.......sigh!

I'll miss that moody, whiny, ol' skool scrappy hubby of mine!

Not Being There Enuff.....

Feel like crap today. I keep thinking of someone i knew a long time ago. That person has changed a lot since we last met. Don't know what the hell happened during those years we lost touch. Maybe me not being around? I dunno but i feel helpless for not being able to help my friend. I value our friendship..but how can i tell my friend? He was the one i told everything to.I mean EVERYTHING! We use to tell each other everything. During the years we were apart, i told myself that i'm better off without him around. But i felt a part of me missing. I had no one to talk to. I felt
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alone.

Then i heard he got married.
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.i felt even more alone. And alone ever since.


We both lost our way it seems. So near and yet so far!

Lay a whisper on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, is there a silence
In the bedroom and all around

Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out

Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm

And it's a hard winter's day
I dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without
It must have been love, but it's over now
It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows

It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out

The Flu

Had the flu after coming back from the East Coast. Felt like crap the morning after. Sneezed my way thru work and felt like like crap during lunch. Everything was blocked and my head was spinning. H called me Sneezy Sita and i know i was annoying everyone with my nose blowing and headaches!

By the end of the day, it had gotten worse and i felt feverish oredi. As much as i dread going to the doctor's, i think i might just have to. CRAP.....