Empire State of Mine

I have had friends that I have known for like years telling me on how I’ve become a totally different person since they saw me last. To tell you the truth, I couldn’t agree more. People say Sita’s more zen’d now and not so much the frazzled friend they once knew and loved. Some has taken a liking to my new found state of “zenness” while others, well……..not so much.
There’s a reasonable explanation to their queries. I’ve been dealt with some cruel crap these last couple of years and through these trying times, patience and perseverance was what kept me alive and sane.  I became more aware of my surroundings, the people whom I choose to surround myself with. On the positive side of things, I’ve ditched friends that I thought were too exasperating and bothersome for my own benefit. It may sound cruel but I don’t think I should stay in any relationship, friendship if I don’t want to. It can be a real pain in my arse!
I am now 33 years old. I am getting older and perhaps wiser in my way of thinking and the actions that I undertake. After all, I am a mom to an 8 yr old boy and a 2.8 month year old girl. I can’t be making brash decisions that will affect my children’s well being and their future. Being a semi single mom pun saps the life outta you. There are instant decisions to make, I can’t be referring to my husband all the freaking time..Well, he is thousands of miles away. I guess that having a handful of good friends, support pun bagus jugak. Having them around tells me that I do have someone to have by my side when the rest shuts their door in my face. Believe you me, I’ve been to hell and back, my friends stuck around to help me pick up the broken pieces of my life. Without them, I wonder where would I be.
I am somehow at ease with where I am at now. I feel much calmer being at home, being a mom and yes…., blogging. I can’t bake to save my life but I know how to whip up a mean Rendang Negori and kurau fish soup for my baby daughter. I love putting her down for her afternoon naps (I pun tumpang sekaki) and watch cartoons with her the whole damn day. But I know that when everyone is in their peaceful slumber, I'd have the house all to myself., then I can put on my thinking cap and whip up a post on my blog, start writing, or even have a cuppa watching my favorite cooking show on telly, my current favourite, Masterchef! I can watch the re-runs  the whole damn day!
Of course I would love to get back to work full time. I sometimes sit and ponder…where will I be if I hadn’t left DRB? I would probably still be slaving my precious hours away for that moronic CEO of mine, some idiotic, canary looking specimen who's a Tengku from some royal family.  I would soooo love a job in corporate communications, maybe a PR Head in some hotshot multinational corporation. LOL! Hey, dare to dream right?
Family had suggested that I write a weekly column in NST, some even suggested that I head over to Aberdeen, Scotland to take up a professional writing course for 6 months. Man, who wouldn’t looooove that? I’ve had offers from the Selayang local council to write their monthly newsletter and I’m still thinking about it as it is mostly a translation job, English to Bahasa. I had a look at their “so called newsletter” and was surprised to see that most of the crap from their previous contributor were no more than a hasty copy and paste job. It was so embarrassing that he should be euthanized!  I’ve been given till March 2011 to think about it…meanwhile, while I’m getting offers from local organizations, I definitely think I have a lot on my plate. There’s decisions to be made. All I need to do is to find myself skilled co- speaker to work with and not someone who will schelpp the entire workload to me. It defeats the purpose of even having a “co” anything in the first place. I wanna be able to go to sleep at night knowing that I did one hell of a job and that I “earned” my bucks.
Anyhoo, this is my rantings on this cold, gloomy Tuesday morning!

Auf Wiedersehen!  


Mummy Misses You!

Mom And Ezane, Duesseldorf, 28/12/10

Ezane & Jan- Farriss, snow sleighing

Best Buds on a sleigh!

Ezane after his first fall

Mama & Nane in the garden

A trip to Legoland for Ezane's 8th Bday

With Lego Santa

Lego Harry Potter

With some German Chicks in Legoland

At home with a drop dead gorgeous backdrop!

This Young Lad



I often see this young Indian chap walk through this path beside my house for a couple of months now. Word is, he takes this route every single day for the past one year to get to a chapel located behind my house. Why that particular chapel, I don't know.

Did he meet someone there?

Did he lose someone there? 

He gets off at the bus stop in front of Carrefour Hypermarket every single day. It takes him almost an hour to just tread this path in his walker. It takes a normal person less than 10 minutes on foot. The things that we take for granted. I had tears in my eyes when I took these pictures of him. I hope that one day I will be able to talk to him and perhaps, with a little bit of luck, he'll tell me his life story. And I hope that one day, I will be able to buy him a proper wheelchair, Insyaallah.